Thursday, January 29, 2009
I'm in that strange space I enter when painting something new and challenging. Unconscious fears arise and block progress, I am holding something back cause I am not ready for it to be released. The only way to free myself is to keep painting but it is torture to keep painting, I hate painting when I am in this space, I have to fight resistance and procrastination with all my will and sometimes this is more exhausting than anything, sometimes I just need to do something else. Yet the paintings keep calling me to work on them. Really struggling with these two pieces yet they are insisting on coming into being. Will probably work on some of my landscapes today and try to rebuild the confidence I need to return to the figures.